Words.
Words are amazing little things. They have the power to “make or break” any situation. THey are the means to meanings, and shape how everything is received. The words, how they are said, what is said, when it is said.
We are in charge, but this often still ends up a troubling situation. Misinterpretations lead to confusion, and distraught feelings. Often times people think it is better to have said nothing, then to say what they had conjured up with the puzzle pieces that are words.
Words are like puzzle pieces, in that when they are put together they can fit and move with simplicity, and gracefulness, or disrupt the confusing labyrinth. One misplaced piece is more or less common among all the perfect fits. When the pieces are put together in a seemingly sensible way, but to others are a bind, is when problems unintentionally arise.
1Do Me A Favor…
“Curiousity becomes a heavy load,
Too heavy to hold, too heavy to hold.
Curiousity becomes a heavy load,
Too heavy to hold, will force you to be cold.
Do me a favour, break my nose!
Do me a favour, tell me to go away!
Do me a favour, stop asking questions!”
I went to sleep last night rather satisfied. I was in a very good mood. I dont know what happened last night. I woke up this morning with a feeling of uncomfortableness, and a deep feeling in my stomach. Every time I talk about the new job, or the interview… You get a little quiet. All of these mixed signals are just messing with me. It’s been a very stressful past couple of weeks. Infact the most stressful they have been all year. I’m exhausted, and the heading are becoming constant; recurring. I just wish if something was wrong you would tell me. I think all you may need is a little reassurance, and I can do just that. Nothing more. If it is a problem, I know its because you dont want me joining solely for you for you, or because you are there. I am not. You are one of the reasons, but my motivation for this job is not solely because you are there. I need a job, I love kids, perfect age group, friendly staff.
Please understand that when I say something once I mean it.
Tell me whats wrong without me asking.
Be upfront.
Do me a favor.
I wish I could stop time.
You ever have those moments in life, where you just dont want time to stop. Where you know that everything in that exact moment, will never be the way it was then. Thats how I felt last night. And the saturday before that. And before that. It seems when im with you, I wish all time would just stop :/ It never feels long enough, two hours easily turns into 10 minutes. Not to be greedy, but i cant help but be jealous when you aren’t with me.
I have this weird feeling I get, when I am not with her. I almost immediately miss her and everything she is. To be honest, I often find myself getting jealous of the people she is with, just because it isn’t me. No matter what im doing, no matter who im with, all I can think about is talking to her. You’re becoming a part of me. I dont think i’ve ever cared about someone as much as her. It’s enough to get jealous when i’m not the one with her, and to never want it to end when I am. I guess it’s a good feeling, I just dont think so when I have it.
